Stress Out, Break Out

College.... so much stressssss! I have midterms all next to one another, papers to do and a neck which feels like being hung but that would be a waste of tuition money >_>

Unfortunately, my skin type is: you stress out and then you break out. So my skin is going crazy and it's pretty disgusting. So in order to help deal with it I bought a product that has been very much raved about: Queen Helene Mint Julep Masque.

General Information:
My skin type: combination (oily T-zone, dry everything else)
Buy it at: Ulta, Sally's Beauty Supply, Walgreens, (if you're lucky) Rite Aid
Price: $4 or less for 8oz.
Ingredients:
water, kaolin, bentonite, glycerin, zinc, oxide, propylene glycol, sulfur, chromium oxide greens, fragrance, phenoxyethanol, methylparaban
NOTE: this is not a natural product

Product Claim:
Helps dry up acne pimples, rinse away blackheads and shrink enlarged pores

How to Use:
cleanse face, apply masque generously, allow to dry for 15 minutes, remove with warm water and washcloth

I wanted to get this product so badly since gurus kept talking about it. However, I couldn't find it at Walgreens and I thought I would be out of luck. Luckily there's an Ulta near SBU and I finally got to pick up the product.

Now here's the generalized rules for skin care:
Cleanse and tone daily (morning and or night)
facial scrub every 2-3 days
masque once a week
moisturize daily

I would've given this a product review sooner but since you should only use a mask once a week i decided to give it at least a month for trial period.

*Whenever I wear the mask I start singing songs from Wicked lol
Product Review:
Definitely smells like mint toothpaste and looks like it when it comes out of the tube (squeeze, no pump), which isn't a bad thing. It's very cooling to the touch and it is very thick and creamy, easily spreadable. When you put it on, it kind of feels like your face is being stung or on fire. Yeah that sounds pretty scary but you get used to it because of the results you get. Spread it all over your face or do spot treatment on pimples or large pores.

After spreading it to your entire face you should wait 15 mins plus to dry. It take me about half a hour for it to completely dry. You can tell it's dry when the green paste becomes an off white green color and you'll find it kind of hurts to smile with the mask on because your skin has dramatically tightened. Once this has occur go wash it off with warm water (opens pores while cold water closes them) and a washcloth.

My experience with the product is:
-it does shrink pimples and gets them out within 2-3 days after using the mask
-temporarily shrink pores since it tightens your face
-does not get rid of blackheads

I like this product even though it doesn't shrink pores or gets rid of blackheads (or at least all of it) it gets rid of your zits quickly. Other products like Clean and Clear, Neutrogena, Oxy and St. Ives don't do anything for me anymore. So this is a great buy and it's cheap. You should definitely try this product out even if your skin is acne free, this mask will give a nice facial treatment to tighten the skin and leave a refreshing sensation without feeling drying.

Hauling Away My Allowance

So yeah didn't blog last week. School work makes my head ache. In any case this week I stayed on campus and went to the mall. And I've been totally obsessed with going to Marshalls because of youtube videos, where you can get all sorts of really good makeup and perfume. In Particular I was scouring for perfumes because I figure I should stop buying too many cosmetics. I bought a pencil case for my travel makeup (aka school) and I completely filled it with only lipsticks and lip gloss!

(Negima Pencil Case from Borders $1 and all 19 lip products were generally $1 except 2 that cost $3)

Big Lots is a necessary evil.

So when I went to Marshalls I was looking for With Love perfume by Hillary Duff and any Britney Spears perfume sets because they are apparently popular. I'd thought they'd be tacky but apparently a lot of celebrity perfumes are good like Celine Dion's Pure Brilliance and Paris Hilton's Heiress (yeah Paris Gilton eww as a person and OMG LOVE HER perfume).

So I succeeded in my quest of finding Hilary Duff's With Love. AND I GOT A FREAKIN DEAL AND THEN SOME. The perfume set comes with: eau de perfume 1.0oz. Body lotion 1.7oz and shower gel 1.07oz. It says it retails for $35 and I got it for $15. It has a very woodsy scent that has some floral undertones. It smells kinda mature but NOT old lady perfumy smell.

Top notes are spices and mango; middle notes are cocobolo and mango blossom; base notes are amber and musk.

Unfortunately I failed at finding Britney Spears perfume. They had curious but either the box was broken or things were taken from it.

However, I did find Elizabth Arden's Mediterranean perfume set. I didn't know anything about the perfume but I know Elizabeth Arden is supposed to be a good brand. It comes with: eau de perfume 1.0oz, body lotion 1.7oz and shower gel 1.7oz. It retails for $35 and it was on clearance so I got it for $7. The top notes are kinda strong but once it dries down more to mid and bottom notes it smells so good. And so far so good because I sprayed it at 3:00 and I'm still smelling it at 10pm.(For reference:I tried Incanto Bliss at Ulta and it fizzled out by 4pm good thing I didn't buy it).

Top notes are sicilian mandarin, plum and peach; middle notes are magnolia, orchid and wisteria; base notes are sandalwood, amber and musk.

Just in case your not interested in Hillary Duff or Elizabeth Arden, Marshalls was like a holy grail for expensive perfumes for less. I was this close to buying a Vera Wang Princess for $50 (it came with: large perfume, mini perfume, large body lotion and shower gel)but then I remembered that I didn't like Vera Wang. I can't smell anything and I've tried. To me it doesn't make much of an impact, unlike my beloved Daisy by Marc Jacobs, so don't kill me if you love Vera Wang Princess. They had other perfumes like Be Delicious by DKNY set for $35, Britney Spears perfumes (not a set, I think sets make your money go a little further), Viva La Juicy, Paris Hilton, and other stuff I just can't remember definitely had a lot of designer perfume. They must've restocked or something.

After Marshalls I crossed the highway because I'm too impatient to wait for the bus. I'M STILL ALIVE! So i crossed the highway and went to Smith Haven Mall. The first place I went to was H&M because I remember my roomatetelling me that the best deals are in the back. AND OMG SHE'S RIGHT. I got 2 shorts with an long elastic waist band,thigh high with plaid-ish design and button cuffed at the bottom. They are usually $12.95 but they were on that $5 deal so I got one in black and the other in white.

They're perfect for gym or just casual. I also got a striped black and pinkish-purple T shirt for $5.95. Feels nice, it's cotton.

After that I went to Claires to check out the makeup, to look at only I swear! One of the youtube gurus promotes some of Claires cosmetics. And It's pretty well designed cosmetic set that is VERY pigmented. So if you want to start out, or get inexpensive cosmetics check out Claires. I can get stuff for cheaper so i won't, plus I have a good amount of makeup and basic brushes.

Then I went to Charlotte Russe to see there perfumes but no was enough.

Lastly I went to XXI Forever (Forever21 but it has men's clothing as well). I really wanted a different colored beret but I decided to not get one because I got other things. I needed belts in different colors. One is braided black and white for $2.95. Very sturdy.

Another was light brown for $4.50 in a V braided design.

And lastly a taupe color in faux suede in the braided design for luck, I didn't really like it plus I felt that getting 2 perfume sets $3.50.

I like braided belts just because you can adjust it easier then the ones with the set holes.

And lastly I got this scarf in turquoise-aqua green with sequins in the middle and beaded fringes. It's very long and thin. It was the very last of it's kind and it was reduced from $15.80 to $0.99.

Total Damage: $54.23 and thus goes the $ my mom gave to me for allowance part of it anyway. My real allowance is a secret ;)

Thrift Stores

So on Friday my roommate and I decided to finally visit Port Jefferson. Port Jeff is only a few miles away from Stony Brook University and the S60 bus is actually located inside of campus. The trip over was relatively short but let me tell you Port Jeff was beautiful <3>And hidden between a row of small boutiques and restaraunts was a little shop. It was a thrift store and they sold preowned and new items. They had everything from clothes (although their selection wasn't so great), wallets, bags, shoes, trinquets, wind chimes (just about every store was selling wind chimes), and more importantly (and what I will be discussing is) jewelry.

I am a pretty stereotypical girl in the fact that I love things that are shiny >.< >I bought these cute silver earrings with a sun/flower like design on top and a teardrop with a pink gemstone on the bottom and two silver gemstones sitting on top of the pink one at the bottom of the teardrop.

I also bought these butterfly filigree earrings. They're so light and I've always wanted butterfly earrings, they're like one of the few bugs that creep me out. It has black wiring with silver plastic rhinestones. **********************************************************************
Fashion Tip for Accessories for the Big, Bold and Beautiful:
If you have a large bust opt for a short necklace that stops above your breasts.
A large bag, it'll slime you down in proportion.
Get a long cardigan the narrow fold will allow you to appear much thinner
If you're tall as well, wear a maxi dress that'll cover up your flaws

Fashion Tip in General:
If you have a large roundish face try large chunky earrings to slim it down
Thin faces should have slim hoops and sized medium to small
Look less gaudy by using only 2-3 types of jewelry (ring,necklace,bracelet, earrings), don't go crazy or you'll actually look pretty crazy.

Fashion Tip for the Petite:
Opt for thin or studded jewelry because large chunky hoops will probably over power your face Get a cropped jacket that stops at your waist and preferably at 3/4 sleeves , it'll make you look longer and thinner
Get a coat that stops at the hips any further like towards the knees and you'll look even shorter. Sorry but no long trench coat :( *********************************************************************

And finally i got this lovely fo-pearl necklace <3>Just before we left I got my roommate to buy a medium bag with a flower print for $.
mwahaha making people spend $ my favorite past time.

That's all for my thrift store adventure, they'll definitely be seeing me again :D

Your Skin But Flawless

I love Stony Brook University and their free mall runs to the shopping district. And of course I love the gurus on youtube because otherwise I would have never known about Ulta. For those of you who don't know, Ulta is a cosmetic, perfume, hair care, etc. store like Sephora or CCO or Sally's Beauty Supply. I was so excited when I found it because I was hoping to get some good products to try out (at a low price).
Now Ulta isn't cheap per say, but they sometimes have items on super low clearance or just products you have a hard time finding. For me, I hit the jackpot and got one item on clearance and another I just couldn't find in Walgreens (Queen Helene Mint Julep Mask). But the product I will be discussing today is Sally Hansen's Inspired by Carmindy: Your Skin Makeup Foundation.... Okay seriously they need a shorter name.

I was curious about the product because of the following:
a) Sally Hansen is well known for their nail polish and so forth but how well is their cosmetics section?
b) I need a new liquid foundation because Summer made me tan and now my Max Factor doesn't suit me at the moment.
c) Why is it on clearence? lol

First off let me just say I LOVE THIS PRODUCT <3

It matches my skin color so well! And it has a slightly thicker consistency than my Max Factor foundation. My Max Factor would actually run down when I put it on the back of my hand (that's my way of applying liquid foundation, I use my E.L.F. foundation brush), it was extremely liquidy but I never thought much about it because it was my first liquid foundation. But the Sally Hansen foundation actually stays put on your hand but it's not so thick because when you apply it on your face, you don't feel it. Hence Your Skin Foundation.

Other notes on the product is that it leaves a somewhat Matte finish (no product can handle my T-zone yet, specifically my nose) but once I add my E.L.F. tone correcting Concealer, my skin looks fairly flawless. I'd like to say that when I'm not wearing foundation, the pores on my nose and a little bit on the T-zone actually visible... too visible. But once I put Sally Hansen foundation, E.L.F. concealer and finish it off with my Borghese mineral loose powder foundation (you should always set liquid foundation with powder) I'd like to think that my skin looks so good and doesn't appear like I'm wearing makeup.

This product (according to the website) is very good for oily skin types because it has oil absorbers. Which I agree because my T-zone looks exceptionally less shiny. It's also paraban free for those who are concerned. Parabans may or may not be linked to Breast Cancer so many consumers want paraban free cosmetics, lotions, etc. (look at your ingredient list on products you'll probably end up seeing a paraban or two). You'll usually find paraban free products with mineral products so not only do mineral product last forever, that's right no such thing as an expiration date, but it's also paraban free.

And now I'll just break it off with the Pros and Cons.

Pros:
-Matches my skin type perfectly! I'm Filipino and the color i got was Spice.
-It stays on my skin for most of the day (it starts to wear off I'm guessing around 8 hours)
-It's weightless on your skin.
-It gives Medium to Full Coverage
-It comes with a PUMP! Take that MAC! trying to get people to pay ~$15 for a pump smh
-You only need a half a pump-one pump for application.
-paraban free, all natural mineral makeup
-absorbs oil so especially perfect for people with Combination to Oily Skin
-full of Vitamin A to improve skin (which I kinda agree because my skin is soft but i could also give credit to my skin care routine)
-It was on clearance so I only paid $3 and that's dirt cheap for liquid foundation (plus it'll never expire) makeup

Cons:
-there are only 12 skin colors so your choices are not that great. worst comes to worst, you'd have to mix colors to get your color and that's too annoying for me
-It has such strong staying power, that it actually stains your foundation brush, my E.L.F. brush is now a different color but I don't care because it only costs a $1 anyway :P
-The bottle is frosted so you either:
a) look up the colors beforehand
b) look under the bottle which has a clear sticker to see the color of the foundation
-The Carmindy line is hard to find if you don't have an Ulta. You may have to try your luck with a CVS
-It's full price is $12.99 which is around what other liquid foundations cost like L'oreal. So not that cheap but not that pricey either.

Overall:
PURCHASE THIS PRODUCT! IT may cost $12.99 but it'll last forever because it's a mineral makeup. The staying power is very good for me because the most touch up I do is with my concealer. It's great for Oily and Combination skin, my skin seems to have calmed down a bit with the oiliness. And it's medium to full coverage for those who need it, and I need it (pimples and giant pores are not fun).

So try out his product. Who knows, maybe you'll fall in love with it like me :D

For more information check out:
product:
http://www.sallyhansennaturalbeauty.com/products/skin/Your-Skin-Makeup-Foundation

About Parabans and the Sally Hansen Natural Makeup Line:
http://www.sallyhansennaturalbeauty.com/paraben-free/

Product Review

This week's post is: all hail NYC ( New York Color) Creme Blush Sticks!

New York Color is a drugstore brand that can be found in virtually everywhere: Rite Aid, CVS, Walmart, Target, etc. But if you really want a good deal watch out for Rite Aid and CVS's BOGO (buy one get one 50% off) or better yet BOGF (buy one get one free) sales.

The creme blushes come in 6 shades of colors: Big Apple Blush, Mauvin' Uptown, South Street Sea Shell, Urban Spice, Berry New Yorker, and Plazza Pink. The last two colors are limited edition and I could only find them at my currently local Ulta (near SBU).

These creme blushes are incredible for 5 reasons:
(1) they're hugeeeeee! you get 8grams or 0.28 oz.
(2) easy usage, it's a retractable stick (like a lip stick)
(3) nice pigmentation, it can easily be built up or sheered out depending on your preference
(4) the texture is creamy so it will glide on with your finger, so a little will go a long way
(5) it's cheap especially if you get at during a sale. It costs $3.99 at regular price.

Now i only have two colors specifically and it's Big Apple Blush and Mauvin' Uptown.
Big Apple Blush is a nice baby pink and would like best as a flushed color on your cheeks. A classic blush color. While Mauvin' Uptown is a more burgundy color and would probably look best on darker skin tones.

*the amount of product*
Now for me there are two Cons:
(1) you would have to reapply approximately every four hours (and this is if you didn't set it with powder blush, which I don't use)
(2) the limited edition ones are hard to find and sometimes I can't even find the regular ones like South Street Sea Shell.

Overall:
Try out the product! It's great for the price, pigmentation, texture and just about everything. And at $4 a pop, what do you have to lose?

*Left to Right: mauvin' uptown and big apple blush*

Kirkland Borghese Mineral Collection

This week's blog entry shall be......A MAKEUP REVIEW!!!!! I don't know about you but I love makeup. And i love it even more when i don't have to pay an arm and a leg for it. Now the buzz when it comes to make up is to get mineral makeup. The whole "let's go green" has successful embedded its thoughts into many people. And now onto the rest of my blog.....

So after completely getting lost on my bike on the way to Elmont. I decided to go to my local TNT. If you don't know, TNT is a liquidator store that sells random home goods like furniture, clothing, school supplies, etc. I went looking for cheap pasta (which i did get: Barilla's Penne Pasta for $0.75) and came out with Kirkland's Borghese Mineral Collection (and some Neutrogena makeup removing towelettes for $2).

I was a bit nervous cuz there was no price tag. But i took it to the counter anyway and got it for $8. That's right $8!!!! Half the price of the Stilla collection that i was debating on getting. I later found out that when it was in Costco it cost roughly $25 ($27 if you bought it online). So i saved around 65% of the retailed value.

Borghese is a high end cosmetics line. You can see their full line at their website. Borghese.com
Now this collection is "Paraban free, oil free and fragrance free"

The Collection came with:
9grams of loose mineral foundation in "Light"
2.8grams of loose mineral bronzer in "Sun Kissed"
1.7grams of looose mineral eyeshadow in 3 colors
"Petal" (soft pink)
"Linen" (Light Taupe)
"Cashmere" (Brown)
2grams of Pressed mineral eyeliner in "Brown"
2 dual sided brushes (eyeshadow, crease, smudge, and eye liner)
retractable blush/bronzer brush
kabuki brush
7grams of Mineral Eyeshadow Base

So now I will review each product:
Mineral Foundation
There are only two colors Light and Medium but medium is too dark for me but Light is barely okay. I'm hoping that by the time its summer my skin will have brighten up and lost its tan. Now when you look at the pigments, it looks shimmery but when you swipe it on its not too noticable. If anything you get a nice soft glow on your face. And of course once you sweep it on you feel nothing on your face. The foundation's active ingredients are :titanium dioxide and zinc oxide, which act as a Spf 15. *LtoRBronzer and Foundation*
Bronzer
The bronzer isn't too dark, it will definately give you a natural sun kissed glow on your face. Again it looks shimmery, but i can't see it on my face.
Eyeshadow
The pigments are INCREDIBLE! They're so beautiful, especially petal. It's a nice highlight color for under your brows. And Linen acts as a nice eyeshadow base and Cashmere will definately give your eyes a nice natural contour and defination on your outter V. It will make your eyes look like its naturally smokey but with some shimmer. A great combination of colors for everyday wear. *LtoR Petal, Cashmere and Linen*
Pressed Eyeliner
The color is a very deep brown. And just like other reviewers have mentioned, because it's pressed poweder coupled with the eyeliner brush, it is fool proof.
Dual Sided Brushes
Eyeshadow/Crease Brush- The eyeshadow is very nice. It's Soft and will pack in the color. However it is on a rather short applicator wand. Around the size of a LA eyeshadow pallete's applicator's size. The crease brush is very small and thin. I think i'd rather use it as a concealer brush. *TtoB Eyeliner/Smudge and Crease/Eyeshadow*
Smudge/Eyeliner- The Smudge Brush is sponge tipped and is not soft. It tugs a bit on your eye which is not good since your eye area is very sensitive. The Eyeliner brush on the other hand is pretty dense and it's a flat eyeliner brush. Coupled with the Pressed eyeliner, it works very well.
Blush/Bronzer Brush
It's a retractable brush so it's perfect for traveling because it will prevent dirt from ruining your brush. It is so dense and soooooo soft~. I love the feel of it on my face, and yes that may sound weird but it truly is a wonderful brush. It's dome shape. The bristles are made of synthetic hair.
Kabuki Brush
Again, it's a dense dome shaped brush and its so soft. I really can't get over how good these brushes are. It's tightly packed and you won't have to worry about the packaging because instead of being attached to a flimsy plastic bottom, the bottom is made of metal like the bronzer brush. The bristles are made of synthetic hair.
Mineral Eyeshadow Base
This base will act as your primer and as such will prevent creasing to hold up your eyeshadow for the day. It also claims to intensify your eyeshadow's color but it was slightly negligable at best then again the eyeshadow is supposed to give a natural look so idk.

And that's all for the review on this great product. I'm so glad i found it <3

DIY For the Non Artsy Person

This is for the flower headband for those who do not have any sewing talent (even though mine is pretty half--- but for you guys, you two shall have a flower headband with minimal effort and no sewing abilities required
Tools:
a headband, preferably with a small ribbon (again forever 21 and H&M sell them for cheap, you shouldnt be spending over $4 for a pack of 3 of them) and chiffon flower bobby pins
my ribbon headband (above) has a very small almost un-noticeable ribbon 3/4 of the way up
and my chiffon flower bobby pins ->
**mine cost $1.50 i bought a pack of two ribbon headbands for $1.50 so one cost $0.75 and the bobby pin flowers cost 2 for $1.50, so all together it cost me $1.50 to make this headband sweeeeeeeeeeeet <3 onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgh-apQslAk-rfr3v2SEEjjqhoX4hCxkdqNo5lPPJZhD9SlFdX5w4sBlX9tQvN0-UXIWLVmuHxs8exZD6BIu8lpQw7yr-kucZUSUxF2xVdpf0Qbu-XoubQw2PeCGun4FuSJCB2yi4E22_Y/s1600/headband+015.JPG">
step2: wear it, that's right that's it
Tips: to add more oumph to the head band add another bobby pin flower (preferably another color) to your headband
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and voiola a beautiful headband for $1.50 remember bargain hunting is fun and a $12.50 headband from claire's is not!

DIY FTW

So i'm pretty much sick with doing the whole diary blog as you can see.... Why type on the internet when i have a perfectly good diary at home? In any case, instead of day-to-day diary blogging I've decided to create a blog focused on useful things like DIY (do it yourself projects) and product reviews from everything from skincare, cosmetics, household items (woot woot)! So this week today's blog shall be..........

DIY Flower Headbands!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (inspired by the headband you see at the side)

Are you like me, who is unwilling to pay $8+ on a headband? i mean it's a hair accessory, why should it cost me a shampoo bottle or something? In any case, here we go:

Tools:
Chiffon or Ribbon, Scissors, Needle, Thread(same color as your chiffon/ribbon), and a plain headband (preferably not plastic), and a small safety pin
Tips: to get a really simple, plain headband with a bow go to forever 21 and they sell a pack of 3 for less than $4, (i got two for $1.50 scoreeeee)

Instruction:
Step1: garb you chiffon or ribbon and cut them into 10 squares, approx. 5cm on each side
step2: take two of the pieces and lay them flat on top of once another at different angles, i'd suggest one is faced like a square and the second one like a diamond
these two pieces will act like the leaves for your flower
step3: take your third square and pinch it in the middle or center of the square, (it will kind of look like a flower)
step4: take this piece (still pinching the the chiffon towards the center) and with your needle and thread, sew the sides together (so you no longer have to pinch it in order to make it look like a flower) we will be using this piece as a petal
step5: sew this piece (through the center of the petal) onto the center of the original two suares that will be the leaves
step 6: repeat steps 3-5 for the other 7 pieces and this will create your flower :D What it should sorta look like ->
step 7: flip your flower upside down (so the you are looking at the back of the leaves) and take your safety pin and pin the needle through the leaves (one side to another)
<- what it should look like step 8: take the pinned flower and attach the pin onto your headband (preferably 3/4 of the way up the head band) and viola you have an expensive looking headband :D
Tips: to add a little more spice to your headband, you can take and old, inexpensive faux pearl earing (for pierce ears, and again forever 21 sells them for cheap) and take the pointed part of the earring and push it through the center of the flower and secure it using the back of the earring piece)
what it should look like ->
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And your final product:

Its so pretty and soft to the touch and no one else will have the exact same one <3

After Valentines

I think I meant it when I said goodbye.
I don't think it would be right if we kept going the way we've been going.
I think it's rather unhealthy. And I think it's about time we both let go and embrace the future. Even if that means we go on alone. You deserve this. I deserve this. There's no use denying who we are. That it's not the same as before. And that it'll never be the same. From this point on, I think we should keep the memories. Only as memories and walk forward as two separate beings.
I do not wish to hear those words from you anymore. You mean well, but you have no idea how much each words fall like snow. It's beautiful and comforting at first but then it build up and soon it becomes entrapped like crystal, cold like stone and leaving nothing but a lonely and unwanted feeling. There is no use denying something that does not exist, simply because it bears no attachment to you. But to me, you who means the world, I must shatter and break free of. You couldn't possibly know of the strength that your words carry. That they choke me, suppress me, and all the same, make me completely dependent on your existence.
Without you, I have nowhere to stand. With you, I have nowhere to grow.
Without me, you'll have no one who feels in such a way. With me, we'll only suffer together.

It is a risk in itself. It can be a wonderful experience full of its ups and down. But without it tragedy is soon to follow.

listening to: Do you have a little time by Dido

Crash

To you I don't exist. Apparently I'm simply wallpaper that is neither scorned nor adored. How annoying.
In any case, have you ever driven on the highway or by some street and all of a sudden there is a major case of traffic on the road way? Your first thought is probably: "damn it's the cops again! Time to slow downnnnnnnnnnnn :D" But when you see no flashing lights in the distance your second thought must be: "Crap. Someone got into a car accident and now everyone's looking." The side show attraction fills your mind with limitless possibilities of what the crash site will appear as. Will it be a drunk driver that crashed into a guard rail? Does it involve two drivers? Or even, sucks to be you now move it or lose it!
However, everything just shuts down once you see the crash. Now picture yourself in the "crash" just outside your neighborhood restaurant. Your car makes a turn signal and attempts to merge into the lane whilst the other person in that lane speeds up.... Turn signal and speeding car hmmmmm sounds like a bad combination. The worst part is, is that when there is no crash but the other driver feels the need to pull over the side and curses you out for "hitting" him. Wait a sec, the other driver didn't even check for damages he just pounces on you? How can you yell at someone who didn't even scratch you? Ten minutes later, the other driver's father appears, yes he called his daddy, and his father shakes his head and says "It's fine. Don't worry about it." And that was it. Noobs.
The next part is where it gets good. When you park into the lot of the neighborhood restaurant call for a table and wait patiently. Then all of a sudden, another crash occurs. This time the person who you apparently got into a "car accident" with enters the very same neighborhood restaurant. What a small world. ;)

Fire and Ice

Sometimes i feel like i don't even live here. As if I am some sort of guest at their residence. Unwanted and waiting for me to make a destination and depart soon. It's as if I live in another dimension. Like a passing show that which sees you butyou cannot see me. And that ignorance or rather unawareness burns me asunder. But it is true. I am waiting, for the day I will depart. It is not that i dislike all the people who reside here but it does not feel like home. Even when i awake from dreaming I still picture in my mind, right before I open my eyes, my small room back home. It may be small but all the same, it is still mine.

Now there is silence. Empty noise and sorrow. It appears fortune did not smile upon my family. But maybe this is a chapter in his life he must overcome. But what now? After tragedy, how do characters rise up? What made Juliet take the dagger? And what made Simba take a stand? How does one fight an overwhelming force?

Listening to:
Soul Edge Boy by AAA

Quote of the Week:

"There is no need to deny the existence of something just because you could not find it."

~BT, .Hack//Sign

Journal:

So it's the second semester at Stony Brook University, and so far it wasn't a complete bore. FYI: if you don't have a car and if you dont have connections with someone who does AND is willing to drive you around, you're going to be, for the most part, bored to tears on the weekends. So much for being a seawolf.

In any case, I finally went to my first frat/sorority party. All the sisters in Kappa Phi Lambda were nice and welcoming. For once I didn't feel like a complete oddball like from those sisters in my friends' suite. I can't go into too much detail, in risk of incrimanating myself and others, but the music, atmosphere and people almost made me want to pledge. Almost. I'm still on the edge, afterall: how cliche is hazzing during initiations? Even if your group publically denounces it, that doesn't mean that there are unspoken words and hidden acts that go behind closed doors.

Listening to:

Heaven by Ayumi Hamasaki